four otps [2/4]
When you were little, couldn’t have been more than five, you just started asking questions. How come we didn’t have a mom. Why did we always have to move around. Where’d Dad go? He’d disappear for days at a time. I remember beggin’ you, ‘Quit asking, Sammy. Man, you don’t want to know.’ I just wanted you to be a kid. Just for a little while longer. Always tried to protect you. Keep you safe. Dad didn’t even have to tell me. It’s just always my responsibility, you know? It’s like I had one job. I had one job, and I screwed it up. I blew it, and for that, I’m sorry. I guess that’s what I do. I let down the people I love. Y’know, I let Dad down, and now I guess I’m just supposed to let you down, too. How can I? How am I supposed to live with that? What am I supposed to do?